Break Time

Despite the fact that I have a paper that is begging to be written and exams that I really need to prepare for, I have decided to take a couple days off. No homework, no studying, just relaxing. I have been Little Miss Productivity for an long time now and yes, I have been knocking out assignments left and right, but it has not been easy. Actually, it has been quite difficult in I-hate-everything-I-write-so-I-should-drop-out-of-college-and-become-a-professional-panhandler kind of way. And since I have been getting headaches every night for the last few days, I think that's my cue to calm down.

In my mind, I deserve a short break. But only a small one. This is not procrastination, it is creative planning for the future.

One of These Days I Will Stop Making Mistakes

I keep posting my posts for this blog on my other blog. This time the post was actually somewhat relevant, but still. This only seems to happen after I get done with a large amount of homework. The extreme fatigue starts to set in and make my mind burn.

The light at the end of the semester long tunnel is on the horizon and it is the only thing getting me through each day. Just two more big assignments before finals week. It's really almost over.

Now if I can just get through my final week of blog posts without screwing it up again...

Because Video Games are the Only Thing That Matters

Final Assignment #1: Study the language of a certain group and report your findings.

In a way, this is all deja vu. Once again I have to be a creeper to complete an assignment, but this time we were given much more control. We were required to choose a certain subgroup of English to study and prepare a short presentation that would lead to a medium size essay.

At first, I attempt to trick myself into doing the project on something that didn't interest me at all, but I soon realized that I was only hurting myself (and my grade). I fell back on my old standby topic: video games.

Yes, whenever I am able to choose my own topic with no restrictions, I almost always include video games in some way. Once, I even composed an essay about Shakespeare, video games, Roger Ebert and swans, and not only did it work, I consider it one of the best papers I've ever completed.

I ended up focusing on the terminology used to discuss the Super Smash Bros. games, which is actually much more extensive that I thought. My presentation is tomorrow and I can tell that it's going to be good because I'm actually extremely excited. And I'm terribly afraid of public speaking.

But it's way too easy for me to get excited when video games are involved.

Library Lessons Part Two

This is what I've realized during my second trip to the library this week:

1. I have spent more time in the library these last few days than I have in my entire college career.
2. Though you may seem or even feel like a loser, a few hours in the library can be more productive if you go on Friday afternoon/evening. The awkward silence becomes an empty one. Add headphones and you can forget you're even there.
3. Good headphones are a good investment. Especially if you want to blast explicit music while you hammer out an 2600 word paper. Or just don't want the random stranger next to you to know just how much you love that song by Madonna.
4. The stuff on the book for sale shelf is hardly ever worth looking at.
5. It is impossible to be truly productive and walk out without at least a slight headache.It might be due to the harsh lighting or an adverse reaction to the smell of dusty dictionaries.

The Camels Back is Already Broken, The Straw is Overkill

Do professors ever actually take in consideration that everyone of their colleagues want to give out major assignments near the end of the semester? They say they do and then the last few weeks come around...all of a sudden deadlines are approaching fast and you have absolutely no time to breathe.

I was doing pretty fine until another assignment was thrown on top of my already overflowing pile. Now I just want to drop out and sleep until the end of the semester. But I have been through worse, so I am pretty sure that I can handle this.

I hope I can handle this.

Library Lessons

These are things that I have learned from after doing homework in the library for a couple hours tonight:

1.) Just because you can find footie pajamas in your size that doesn't mean that you should buy them. Or wear them in public. Especially if you're male. 

2.) Bad smells don't go away; you just get used to them.

3.) Headphones are pointless if everyone around you can hear your music.

4.) Don't assume a person is Facebook stalking you if you walk over and see your page on their computer screen.

And most importantly:

5.) I can't stand doing my homework in the library.

I'm a Good Writer, No Matter What I Think

I have hit that frustrating part of the semester where I believe that every word I write is absolute garbage. It's probably a side effect from all of the pressure caused from busy last half, but I can't stop thinking that I should quit while I'm ahead. Even writing those first two sentences was an unnecessarily difficult struggle.

But a meeting with my professor reminded me something that I forget more often than I'd like to admit: I'm good at writing. I suppose the cliche "You are your worst critic" is a cliche for a reason. Perhaps I have temporarily lost the ability to write and edit my own work without muttering to myself that I'm a failure.

Here's hoping that I can get it back soon. I have several assignments that are begging for completion.